Tolerating The Player

I continued to go round the hospital asking every single nurse or doctor that comes my way but still no positive response. I was getting really worried and almost broke down in tears but decided to search for her in every way possible.

I thought she must have gone to her father’s house but the moment I drove there, the doors were locked and everything was still the way it was before I rushed her father to the hospital. She wasn’t here either.

I went back into my car to continue the search for her, perhaps she went to Grace house to talk to Joe or so I thought. The moment I got there I met Grace sitting outside with Joe as she gently stroked the poor crying boy’s hair.

“Grace!” I called for her attention and she turned to look at me.

“What brings you here?” She asked with a little smile on her face. But I wasn’t here for the greetings either so I instantly cut her off.

“Where’s Isabella?” I asked while trying to make my voice sound bold because it was killing me inside that I couldn’t find her.

“Why? She isn’t here” she responded, she was about to ask another question before I suddenly left for my car and zoomed off.

She isn’t in any place she used to be and it made me worried, Maya had earlier said something about her renting an apartment but then I have no idea where it is.

I stopped driving for a while and buried my head on the wheel, different thoughts were running through my head and I just hope she’s okay wherever she is. She just lost her father and she’s definitely sad about it but then she’s alone at the moment and no one knows where she is. What if she’s hurting herself.

An idea suddenly popped into my head, I remembered the last time she was sad she went to a special place to cool her mind off when I called her.

I started my car and made a quick turn to go there, on getting there I silently prayed she would be there. I entered into the woods but heard no single sound until I suddenly spotted Isabella entering the lake. It was really cold and I wondered why she would want to enter the lake. Some seconds went by and she wasn’t coming out of the water. My whole body trembled and shook at the thought of her trying to end her life.

Without waiting any longer I ran towards the lake and jumped into it, I carried her out and laid her flat on the floor. She didn’t hold her breath in the water and she was unconscious.

I gave her a CPR for her to at least open her eyes before I would call the ambulance,

“Isabella please come back to me!” I cried. I tried everything in my power to revive her and luckily she suddenly coughed water out of her mouth.

I was overwhelmed with joy that I didn’t realize when I carried her on my body and hugged her tight until I heard her sobs.

“Isabella, what the hell were you thinking of drowning yourself!?” I yelled as tears flowed down my eyes.

“Why did you come back?” Her faint voice asked.

“Because I love and care for you, why would you think of hurting yourself?” I asked again.

“Why shouldn’t i? I literally have nothing to live for anymore and problems just keep piling up. I thought I could trust you to handle me but I was wrong. You ended up damaging me more than it already was” she cried aloud.

I knew I had messed a lot of things up and had no excuse to give her but to pull her closer to my body and let her cry her eyes out on my body.

“I’m sorry” I muttered into her ear as we stood in the same position for some time before I held her hands tight and led her to the car.

“I want to go to my apartment” she said and called out the address to me. I followed the address and realized that I had parked in front of her apartment earlier on when I thought I wasn’t going to find her anymore.

We came down from the car and I led her inside her apartment. It was just a small apartment and stuffy but I guess I’ll have to talk her out of it.

“Why did you do that to me?” She asked in a tone that showed she was drained of energy and emotions. She was depressed and I hate to see her this way.

“I had to do it Isabella, I’m sorry” I apologized but she cut me off almost instantly.

“Why the hell did you need to hurt me, what could have possibly led you to hurting me that way. It really hurts Zach!” She sobbed as I bowed my head. I wasn’t strong enough to look into her eyes.

“I did it to protect you, some people were after me and at that moment everything was crazy. They threatened to hurt you in exchange for me, knowing it would truly hurt me so I had to do that In order to let you leave Brazil” I said but I wasn’t saying the whole truth yet and I knew.

“Wow! You’re going about making up excuses aren’t you?” She scoffed. I knew she might not believe what I told her until I tell her about my past but then I wasn’t sure I was ready to say it.

“I promise you Isabella, I’m not making up excuses. I did some wrong things in Brazil some years ago way before I met you and you changed me I promise” I sighed hoping she wouldn’t ask what it was but then I would have to tell her because she would surely ask and if I wanted her trust back then I had to start from somewhere.

“What did you do?” She asked and my heart suddenly started to pound.

I heaved out a heavy breath hoping the weight on my chest would reduce, ” I used to be a really bad person especially when I was younger. There’s this girl, Zoe. She liked me a lot but knew I didn’t like her back. She kept coming to me every now and then even though I made it clear to her that I couldn’t and wouldn’t date her”

“I was drunk this day after winning a match but when I got to my apartment I met her sitting in my living room. I had no idea where she got the key from till now. She seemed to be making dinner for me because she wanted to impress me. Being drunk, I was really horny and tried to have her in bed. She knew I was drunk and claimed that she wanted our first time to be special, especially when I wasn’t drunk.” I paused then continued after looking her in the eyes.

” I couldn’t control my urge anymore so I forced myself on her. I know I was terrible but I was also drunk and had no idea what I was doing. She cried her way out of my apartment and I didn’t hear from her in a while until one day when I found her in my apartment again. She was in the apartment to show me some medical reports claiming she was pregnant for me.”

“I was dumb struck and angry at the same time that I pushed her out of the house telling her I could never be the father of her child even though I knew I was the only man she had slept with. She really didn’t deserve any of this but I wasn’t in my right senses back then and I regret it so bad now.”

“Some weeks later I got a news from her bestfriend that she commuted suicide because I didn’t accept her child. From that point I felt truly bad for her and guilty. Her parents tried to take the matter to the court but I managed to win the case. Her best friend wasn’t going to let go and she has somewhat become a very powerful and influential woman.”

“I wasn’t scared of her, hadn’t been but when you were in the picture everything wasn’t alright. They tried to kill you to get back to me knowing I truly love and care for you and wouldn’t ever hurt you” I stressed my last few words in order to make her feel relieved but ever since I started talking she hasn’t said anything to me and it made me freak out.

“Say something please?” I begged but she didn’t say a word as her brows were still furrowed. She was scared and confused, she probably thinks I would do the same to her.

“I’ll never hurt you Isabella” I said again but got shocked with her response to me.

“Get out Zach!” She said at first in a calm tone but I couldn’t just leave her behind so I stayed anyway not wanting to leave her.

“Isabell…” I tried to call her but was shunned immediately.

“I said get out Zach!” She roared. I was trying to control myself from not breaking down even though every organ in me had broken. She knows about my past and won’t forgive me. I know I had been a terrible person but I sincerely changed after meeting her.

I was going to leave her apartment and wait outside for some while till she gets herself back. Perhaps she just needs some space alone.

As I was about to leave and opened the door, a figure appeared in front of me and I didn’t need anyone to tell me that it was Fiona with the striking resemblance they possessed.Please check at N/ôvel(D)rama.Org.

“Hello there!” She smiled.