Please Love Me

Chapter 33

A week has passed since my birthday. I’m still processing my confession to Enzo. I also remembered

that Zion was the one who took me home. I remember his confession. He told me he loves me...and I

feel bad. I really do. It’s possible that Zi is feeling what I am feeling along the way.

All the heartaches..

All the jealousy..

All the Pain..

But that was unintentional, just like Enzo, it’s not my intention to hurt anyone. But he promised me. And

I held on to that promise. We are not aware that we are hurting each other along the way. I need to

stop!we all need to stop.

I stood up to my things in the closet. I stopped when I saw a gift inside the I smiled bitterly.

I don't know how Enzo put it in. Well, he has access in our house since he’s welcome here.

I sat on my bed to open it. I smiled when I saw i huge stuffed toy bear what is holding a huge

strawberry in its hands.

I can’t help but to feel sand as I look at the bear. One fucking week! I have no news from the outside. I

did not dare to go outside my room nor did I accept any visitors. I turned off my phone and deactivated

all of my social media accounts. I immediately wiped my tears when someone knocked.

"Are you ok Tricia?" asked Mom and dad.

That’s the question they always ask since the day after my birthday.

"I'm fine.."

I felt the movement on my bead when they sat down. I can’t look at them because I feel ashamed.

Dad’s phone rang so he excused himself outside.

What a deafening silence…

I can feel Mom’s stares at me.

"I know Tricia.." She caressed my hair, so I looked at her. My tears are falling again.

"I love him mommy.." My voice is shaking as I hug her.

"I know Tricia... I know you guys since you were kids, so I know how you feel for him." All text © NôvelD(r)a'ma.Org.

"It hurts mom! It really hurts... I tried my best not to fall but I failed. I don't want to ruin the friendship or

whatever we have, but I did.."

Mom is just supporting my back to calm me.

"Why did we end up like this, mom? all my life, I’ve got high grades! I became a valedictorian! I can

formulate solutions to every math problem, but why can’t I solve this? When it comes to this, i’m a

failure..." I laughed sarcastically.

"You’re now a grown up..." Mom said seriously. A small smile crept on her lips. "I know that someday,

you would feel that kind of pain. I won’t judge ENzo because I know him...I know that it hurts, but it’s a

sign of your love. I know Enzo loves you, maybe not in the way you want him to be, but he does love

you, Tricia.”

This is why I love my mom so much. She never judge me.. She supports me, and helps me get up.

"What's your plan Tricia?" She asked.

What’s my plan? After what happened, I don’t know if I can still face them. I’m so broken...

"I've just realized my. The most painful thing is losing myself in process of loving him. I almost forgot to

love myself."

This is what Iv'e realized these past days.

We cannot beg someone to stay when he wants to leave,We just have to admit that love doesn't gave

us license to own a person.. Even though you want to own a person, you can never do it. You just have

to sacrifice.

It pains me more to think that I will not be the person who'll give him hapiness.. so I have to let him go.

Now I know my place..

Now I know my worth..

Now I know what I deserve..

Now I know it's time for me to move on.

Mom’s just quiet while she is waiting for my answer.

Deafening silence…

I’ve thought about this decision for the past few days. I decided to put myself first. I was about to talk

when Dad entered.

"Trish! Hon! I have to go back to the U.S. earlier than planned" Daddy said sadly. Mom stood up to go

to him. They’re about to go out when i voiced out my decision.

"Dad!I'm coming with you!"