Love Aint Always Pretty

Chapter 70: 70 New Beginnings

New Beginnings

- the point or time at which something new begins

"What?!" I exclaimed loud.

Kurt laughs. "If your lips were sealed last night, you couldn't told him the truth."

I hit him. "You let Nick drive me back to the hotel last night?! Talk about being best friends."

"Savannah I could see the jealousy in his eyes and I wouldn't want him to hit me."

I sigh.

"And you were the one who told him I was gay." He laughs.

"Oh shut up." I spit.

"I guess our drama last night didn't pay off. I was even making out with you which was super gross." He blurted.

I sigh heavily. "Super gross? Wow. You even said I got you horny."

He rolled his eyes at me.

"I was so drunk last night that I couldn't remember a thing. I didn't even know it was Nick who drove me here. Ugh! I hate you!" I raged.

Kurt hugs me. "As much as you want to vent your anger at me, let's pack up our stuff then grab our breakfast."

"My head is killing me." I threw myself back to the bed.

"Get up! Our flight's in two hours."

"Ughhhh why did you have to pick such an early flight!" I complained.

"Savannah it's already five in the afternoon. Get the fuck up and shower."

The minute we got to the airport and sat down inside the plane, I stared right outside my window while Kurt was busy taking a piss. As soon as the plane was moving, Kurt came back to the seat beside me. He held my knee.

"Hey, remember that bitch at the pub last night?" Kurt asked.

I nod.

"But I really don't want to know more about her. She's seriously gonna make my hungover worst." I tell him as I was massaging my temples.

"Her name's Dakota." Kurt snapped.

I moved my head to him.

"I hate you." I spit.

He grins. "Baby cakes you can't hate me."

I playfully hit his shoulder. "I don't wanna know anything about her. I hate her. Now get over it and shut up."

He laughs. "Cheer up baby cakes. It's gonna be a long flight back to New York."

I rolled my eyes at him. "Oh whatever."

•••••

Two weeks passed after that wedding in Las Vegas, I was already busy hunting down other companies for my internship. A year to go and I'm gonna graduate soon. I didn't apply for my internship in the Devaloines Group because I know I couldn't qualify to their high standards. I was scared to try something as big as Devaloines Group for my internship. I'll apply to their company when I'm ready.

"Thank you! I will never fail you." I say with a smile. "Thank you again. Thank you so much." I repeat.

The second I stepped out of the office, I jumped happily and I didn't care if people were looking at me. I quickly called up Kurt's phone and it was just ringing for a few seconds and then he finally picks up.

"Guess what?" I chimed.

"You finally found a new guy?"

I rolled my eyes. "Better than that! Remember that publishing group I was aiming for? I got accepted!"

"Baby cakes I told you you're wasting time on that cheap ass publishing house."

"Kurt, I need to start at the bottom. I don't like starting at the top right away. Maybe after internship I'll apply for Devaloines Group." I say confidently.

"But I'm still happy for you. Shall we celebrate to that tonight?"

"Yes! We should! I'll call up Damon if he wants to come. He's leaving for Cali tomorrow night. It's double celebration."

"Great! Gotta go, still need to get to my next class."

"Bye." I hang up.

I headed out of FMA Publishing House and quickly got into my car. As soon as I was about to turn on the engine of my car, my phone lights up as it sits on the passenger seat. I hurriedly gabbed it and my eyes widened from my sockets.

Hey ex roommate! Guess what? I'm in NYC baby! Be my tour guide? Haha. I terribly terribly miss you!! -Tracy

I gasped and hurriedly dialed up her number. "Trace!!" I squealed when she answered her phone.

"Savannah!!! I haven't seen you since you left WSU!"

"Where are you? Are you at the airport?"

"No. I'm in my hotel. I'll text you the name and room number. I need to unpack my things here." She says.

"Oh okay. I'll be driving there now."

I hang up.

I quickly drove to the hotel that Tracy texted me and since I haven't seen her for such a long time, I know I just had to see her. I don't know if she knows what happened to me and Nick but I didn't really care if he was with her here in New York cos I specifically told myself that I need to distance from him and our memories. I wonder where he went to after he left me at Las Vegas. He's always gone and he doesn't really tell me about it. He always leaves me. Always leaves me.

When I reached the hotel, I quickly went up to her room and rang the doorbell. Tracy was the one who opened the door and she quickly threw herself to me. I was shock at first cos she was getting thinner.

"I missed you!!!" She chimes.

I smiled. "I missed you too. So so much."

She pulled herself away from me as I examine her really carefully. My brows creasing. "You're.." I trailed.

"Sexy." She chirped.

"You're so thin." I tell her.

I examine her even longer.

"Thinner." I corrected.

She smiles at me and just pulled me inside the room. Tracy's bony hands were holding me tight and I could see her knuckles clearer. I could see her collar bone so much than the last time I saw her, that bony shoulder and smaller hips. God what happened to Tracy? She's super skinny, more like bony after a year of not seeing each other. Was she on a diet?

"Don't look at me like that." She says.

"What... What happened to you?"

She took a long pause.

"Why with the sudden weight loss?" I asked her.

She smiled. "I'm aiming for a weight."

"Tracy you lost too much. You need to gain a little bit." I say.

"Oh shush, you need to tour me around New York." She says.

"Actually I'm having a little bit of a party tonight, you should come."

Tracy's eyebrow shoot up. "Party?"

"Yeah. Maybe a few drinks at the club. I just had my internship.

Tracy gasped. "Oh my god no way!"

She hugs me again and then held my hand. "I'm so happy for you!" She says. Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.

"Thank you! You're so unfair, you didn't invite me to your graduation."

Tracy smiles at me ruefully. "Let's go shopping? I'm so bored now. Let's make most out of our time."

I giggled.

Both of us headed out of her room and got inside my car. I glanced at Tracy's super skinny thighs and her bones that are showing off of her knees. I started driving away from the hotel and as we got stuck on New York's traffic jam, Tracy said something to me out of the blue.

"Savannah? I'm sorry."

I gazed at her. "Sorry for?"

"About Nick and what he did to you. I'm sorry. I talked to him about you, I kept forcing him to go back to see you and to tell you how sorry he was. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't do anything to patch you back together. You always seemed to help me with Clyde. I'm sorry."

"Trace, it's not your fault."

"It's my fault. It's all my fault. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I didn't know. I'm sorry."

I grabbed her hand and held it as tight as I could, "It's not your fault. You didn't want this to happen."

Tracy all of a sudden hugs me and I saw tears forming in her eyes. She holds on to me tight and she was just crying. I held her thin body and rubbed my hand over her showy spine. I could feel her spinal chord over my palm but I ignored it. It even made me think that she's sick.

"Tracy I'm okay now. It's been a year. I'm doing fine." I say as I pull myself from her.

I smiled. "I'll be over Nick and it's not your fault. I didn't blame you. I can't blame you. You've been nice to me since the day I met you, Im not blaming you for this. I blame Nick." I added.

"I'm sorry."

I wiped her tears. "Let's just enjoy New York shopping? I'm sure you'll love the designs in here."

She nods and smiles.

•••••

At the pub, around ten in the evening, I headed my way to the table where I see Kurt and his bright yellow shirt. Tracy said she couldn't come cos she was busy on finishing her paperwork so it was just me, Kurt and Damon as always.

"I thought someone else was coming with you?" Kurt asked.

"She's busy with paperwork." I say.

I called up for the waiter and ordered up a glass of brandy. "Ohhh brandy, that's new for you." Kurt teases.

I smiled. "I need something strong to drink. I'll be a busy woman this Monday and I have so many things in mind."

"But, congratulations Savannah." Damon smiled at me as he clinked his glass.

"Thanks Damon. I'm so gonna miss you when you leave for Cali." I smiled back.

"I'm gonna miss you too. But I'll always call you, I hope we still have communication while we're going to be far away." He says.

I nod.

"I'll just go to the bathroom." Damon excused himself.

I moved my head to Kurt who was looking at me with that evil grin on his face. I snorted as I take a quick drink from my glass.

"What's wrong with you?" I asked him.

"You know, you are so blind when men eyes for you." Kurt smiles again.

"What are you even talking about?"

"Savannah, why don't you and Damon try to go out on a date?"

I choked on my drink. "A what?! A date? Why in hell would we?"

"Cos he likes you! Duh? God why are you so blind?" Kurt face palms.

"Damon is a friend." I say.

"To you he's a friend but to him he sees you differently. He sees you more than that. Baby cakes, I know I'm so gay but I can tell when a guy likes you."

I gaped.

"I think it's time for you to move on over that asshole Savannah. Damon is the answer. Come on." Kurt looks at me.

"What do you want me to do? Ask him out? He's the guy." I say.

Kurt laughs and ordered another cocktail for himself. "Let's have it this way, if he takes you out, promise me you'll give it a try on him. He's my student before so I know him better than you. He came from a wealthy family, he's smart and he's hot."

I smiled. "Now you better shut it cos he's coming back here."

"We've made a deal." Kurt smirks.

I rolled my eyes at him, "Fine."

Damon sat back down on his seat and I smiled at him then he did the same to me. Now he's really not a bad guy. Damon is awesome and Kurt is right. He is hot and handsome. Damon looks like a jock on the exterior but he is insanely brilliant. He excels in his classes and sometimes he lets me copies his assignment too.

"Let's make a toast." Kurt raises his glass.

Damon and I stared at each other with the what-the-hell-is-this-toast-for look on our faces then we did the same thing anyways with smiles on our faces.

"To Savannah and Damon's internship. For a successful and prosperous future for the two of them." Kurt smirks at me.

I gaped at him. "What the fuck." I mouthed to him and he laughs.

"Cheers!" Kurt speaks.

"Cheers!!" Damon and I screamed together as we hit each other's glasses.

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