Excruciating Deep Love with You

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I wanted to love Su Chengzhao. Although I didn’t love him now, I had to try my best to fall in love with him. I didn’t want to let down the man who had loved me for three years but endured silently for the rest of my life.

Su Chengzhao looked at me surprisingly and reacted after a while. Then he pulled me into his arms all of a sudden and said in a dull voice, “It’s really hard to love someone. You needn’t love me; it’s enough that I love you.”

He always considered me first, but why was Qin Mochen the one I loved?

After living in the hospital for one week, I was picked up by Su Chengzhao to his home and lived there for another week.

Half a month had gone by, but Qin Mochen never came to find me as if I did not exist. And I seemed to have already become accustomed to days without Qin Mochen; it was so cozy.

The winter of this year was too cold. Only standing by the window for just a while, I was sore all over.

When I just wanted to turn around, my underbelly ached suddenly, then I fell to the ground. However, the expected pain didn’t come as I fell into a hug.

Seeing Su Chengzhao’s panicked look, I lifted my lips and smiled lightly, “You came back on time.”

Su Chengzhao held me and lay me on the bed and rubbed my face painfully, “You have become thinner again.”

I smiled and said without a care, “I would be slender if I am thinner.”

Su Chengzhao held me tightly in his arms with a sorrowful tone that he hadn’t had before, “Yufei, what should I do with you?”

I closed my eyes and held his waist tightly, then buried my head into his hug deeply. Listening to his powerful heartbeat, a trace of pain flashed in my heart unreasonably.

I didn’t know why Qin Mochen didn’t find me in the past half month. However, I knew that half of the reason was Su Chengzhao as he was protecting me with his means.

Thinking of this, I felt the most guilty towards the man in front of me in this life except my father.

I struggled out of his hug and looked into his dark eyes. Then I leaned forward to kiss his thin lips with my two hands caressing his neck lovingly.

Su Chengzhao’s body became stiff first while his shocked eyes stared at me, but it was just for a moment. Then there was a trace of surprise in his eyes; he held me in a tight embrace and kissed me back affectionately.

He pressed me under him with his hands roaming over my body. I looked at him breathlessly but held the words back. This moment, I had an impulse to devote myself to him, to the man who had loved me for three years.

He buried into my chest and kissed me lovingly. His soft lips and tongue brought me a feeling of numbness and his big hands touched my body gently.

When I was naked and lying in front of him, a sense of timidity appeared in my heart. The hands crossed on his lean waist before becoming too stiff to rest.

He kissed me passionately and didn’t notice my reaction. Then the kiss moved down my body with his lips lingering around my underbelly.

His hot breath made my body tighten, then he separated my legs with his hands and looked at me with eyes full of desire which were gentle before.

He came close to me as his lips covered mine and twittered, “Yufei, won’t you regret?”

My heart was shivering and my body was stiff. I could feel his swell rubbing my private part as if waiting for my approval to pounce on me.

I had to admit that I flinched at that moment. The thought of devoting myself to him was extinguished suddenly.

I felt I was a bastard who could only hurt the man who loved me.

Maybe the hesitation and regret were too obvious as Su Chengzhao pinched my chin with pain in his eyes, “You still love him after all, right? Although he has hurt you so hard, you still love him.”