69. All In
A couple of days after their last sexual encounter, there was an awkward silence between them every now and then. It was as if the two of them knew something was wrong but didn’t want to be the first to point out the elephant in the room.
Cassidy thought since he was the mature one he should’ve discussed whatever is going on with them, more so because she was worried that she might overthink it. But in Rowan’s mind, he thought if Cassidy had any qualms she should ask him, and since she didn’t ask any questions, he ended up talking about everything else to steer clear of the issue.
It was stupid, he knows that he should talk about it. But in his mind, he really didn’t want to lose her if he pushes too fast. He never felt so in love before that he knew he’d be lost without her. It was pathetic and so fucking sappy he thought. But the truth was that he just wanted to be with her, to love her for however long they can be together.
Rowan knows his heart wants what it wants, and Cassie was it.
“Earth to boss man, Sir, I really need you to sign off on these,” Kaitlyn, his PA interrupted his thoughts when she came into his office. She obviously knocked, though he must’ve failed to hear her.
“Kaitlyn, yes, tell me what I need to sign?”
“The new PR campaign, you talked about it at the last meeting. This is the budget approval from River, the CFO?” Rowan shook his head when she explained who River was as if he had forgotten their only CFO.
“I know who River is thank you, Kaitlyn, and don’t think I know what you’re trying to do there,” Rowan said when he opened the folder and glimpsed at the document. He read it carefully one last time before he signed his name on it.
Rowan continued his day while his mind kept on going back and forth to Cassie. It was ridiculous that he finally had enough, he decided that he needed to talk to her. Seriously.
And so he did, that evening when he reached home he was ready to talk with her when he was surprised by a candle-lit dinner and Cassidy was waiting for him looking like a beautiful angel under the dimmed lighting.
“Hey,” she greeted him nervously.
“Hi,” he dropped his suit jacket on the kitchen counter along with his briefcase and walked towards her. “So, you’ve been busy,” Rowan put his hand on her waist, pressed his lips to hers, and deepened the kiss before slowly pulling away from her.
“Mrs. Dawson helped,” she blushed sexily, “I thought tonight we could talk.
“I’m sorry,” Rowan cupped her cheek, tilting her face to his. “I should’ve taken the time, I swear though I was going to make us talk tonight.”
She smiled at him and let him kiss her again. “I love you,” she said and he replied with the same affection.
“You want to talk first or have dinner first?” She asked thinking he might be hungry after work.
“Why don’t we make it easier by talking while we eat?”
She nodded and let him lead Cassidy to her seat. He poured her wine and took the seat next to her before he poured himself a glass.
Cassidy took a big gulp and then started the conversation. “I realized after losing my parents that life is short,” she said while fiddling with her salad. He nodded in agreement and sipped his wine slowly.
“I’m saying I want you, Rowan, I want us,” she put her hand on his and forgets about her salad.
“Oh, god, I can’t believe how relieved I am hearing you said that. I’ve been in such a mess after you accompany me to visit my mom. Everything was moving faster than before.” He entwined his fingers with hers, and continued, “It’s like the only two speeds with you are, fast and faster and somehow my gut telling me that I couldn’t even care even if I crash. Cause I know it’ll be worth it and I know I will do it all over again.” He took her hand and kissed her knuckles.
“Rowan,” she squeezed her hand in his, her eyes were glassy, and her emotions were feeling everything from happy to worry but she stayed still and let him interrupt her chain of thoughts.
“I love you, Cassie, I knew that we were supposed to talk, I knew we’re really new at this relationship thing, and I knew you’re too young for me. But… somehow I also knew that you’re the one for me, and there’s only one direction to go where we’re heading in the future. So, seeing that we’re going too fast already…” Rowan releases one hand to reach down his pants pocket for a small velvet box.
Cassidy was barely seeing Rowan the moment she saw the ring when he opened the box. The ring which Rowan bought on his way back home. Seeing the billboard for the jewelry store, he took it as a sign. And the man had settled his decision to move forward, go all in and throw his heart into the abyss of uncertainty.
Her tears fell when he asked her.
“Cassidy Rhodes, you’re beautiful and have an even more beautiful soul. I love you and I want to marry you, make you my wife, and be the man who will cherish you for as long as you’ll have me. Will you be my wife?”
It took all her strength not to say yes in the spur of the moment, but Cassidy needed him to listen. “Rowan, I realized today that I want to be with you. The hell with consequences, and you’re right, after meeting your mom it felt like the floodgate was opened, and when it rained it poured… but I still want you, so yes, if you want me, I want to be your wife.” Cassidy didn’t know how she was able to blurt out the words but she was shaky afterward. Then Rowan held her hand firmly and slipped the pink diamond on her finger. It was beautiful, and modest but showed just how cherished she truly was.
After her parents’ passing, she knew she would never take anything for granted. There’s always no guarantee with everything in life, she wanted everything with Rowan, with no regrets. And if he wants babies, she will have them gladly, they will make it work.
People marry while they’re in college, they even have babies. It was ridiculous to think she wanted to wait when all she wanted was to jump into the adventure that is Rowan. There was no happily ever after for her, she learned that the hard way with her parents’ death. So she was taking it as they came, whether it was slow or fast and faster, just like Rowan pointed out before.
“We’re fucking doing this aren’t we?” Rowan laughed and pulled her to sit on his lap, Cassidy wrapped her arms around his neck and told him yes. Happy tears roll down her cheeks and he kisses them away, then catches her smiling lips with his own.
“Yes, yes, yes, I’m doing this, we’re doing this. I want to wake up next to you every day, I want to have a life with you. Whatever future we’ll have, I want it all.” She held his jaw and gave him one deep lovely kiss.
“So, who do we tell first? the twins of the gossip sisters.”
“Can we keep it to ourselves for tonight and think about it tomorrow? I still can’t believe what you did.”
“Hey, you agreed to it too.” He defended, his voice sounded playful, though his face tells it all, he was grinning so wide his teeth might dried up.
The lover finished their candle-lit dinner with a happy conversation about their future and about their plans to tell their siblings.C0pyright © 2024 Nôv)(elDrama.Org.